Autism revisited

Autism has become popular of late. The rate of diagnosed autism rises fast. If this is due to a better awareness or an actual increase is impossible to determine due to a lack of a baseline. It’s unknown what autism rate was so one can’t say if it increases in reality, the awareness causes more diagnosed cases or both.

Wholly based on my own speculation i go for the latter but that’s immaterial.

What is important is that the description of Autism in the DSM, including DSM V, is incomplete. What it does is describing the symptoms of Autism not the whole thing.

As having Asperger myself i can with certainty say that based on my own experiences and those of my peers that Autism is a different state of consciousness which presents the world some symptoms making communication difficult.

This different state of consciousness is obviously hard to describe to someone who doesn’t have it. One can just make an effort similar like explaining a color to a born blind person.

It is a world where thought patterns are more linear, more straightforward. Events have no emotional compound obfuscating, complicating the interpretation.

An event gets analyzed on its face value, without interference. Whereas non Autists see the world through the limbic systems filter, coloring the event, Autists in general don’t.

This frustrates the limbic system to no end. It wants to be heard. I know it’s there, screaming at me, but it’s in a soundproof room. Since this system still has functional control over your hormones it can make life pretty nasty for you. Anxiety/fear is one of the predominant expressions of this frustrated entity. This can in serious cases present itself as tantrums, rage. And that’s what the world at large sees, an anxious person with no or hardly any emotional interaction.

To me my autism is a good thing. I see it works for me by freeing me from the shackles of the limbic system.

The medical profession however sees this different, not fully comprehending it, and offers ‘treatments’ designed to make you behave as if you are controlled by the limbic system. More like them.

But i don’t want to be like them. I want to be me, i don’t have a ‘disorder’. I am different. Not better, not worse. Different.